Hey, you.

Hey, you.

I’m right. My life does suck.

Nobody cares. None at all.

People might miss me, but I won’t push my luck.

 

Drinks, drugs, divorce.

It’s all hand in hand.

You don’t actually need me… Show no remorse.

 

In a bath, the water runs out.

Left you in the cold.

Once nice and warm, now turned about.

 

Nothing to do.

Nothing matters.

Nothing. Nothing. Nothing.

 

My hand clenched tight.

The edge gleams silver.

Should I? Do I end this forever night?

 

You’re stronger than this.

Remember those days?

That childhood bliss?

 

I can do this. Earth needs me.

I can make my own mark.

I’m trying, I’m trying, but my passion all flee.

 

I’m standing again.

A phoenix, I rise.

I can do it, I’ll do it, I’ll hopefully stay sane.

 

No! I failed.

I failed again.

Back in the hole, in that bath, with the dead.

 

Nobody wants you.

Nobody cares.

If they ever loved, then they would have said.

 

Nobody cares.

Nothing to do.

Nobody. Nothing. Never.

 

Just one more chance?

I will try again.

Through potholes and minefields, this life I will dance.

 

One step. Two.

Three, and another.

I’m getting better, I’m being made new.

 

People don’t care.

I’m all alone.

I wish for a friend to whom my heart I could bare.

 

I failed.

I’m sorry.

I can’t do this.

 

You’re a person

Human. Broken. Imperfect.

This condition will only worsen.

 

I’m trying again.

I know I have to.

My family needs me, them I don’t want to screw.

 

I need someone.

Someone to lean on.

A crutch. A helper. A light at the dawn.

 

Can’t I be free?

All these years, masks been my friend.

I just want to be loved, accepted, being me.

 

So much to work through.

So little time.

Why did I let my life go askew?

 

One pace at a time.

I have to believe it.

They actually accept me. Me and my slime.

 

I’ll get there in the end.

Or maybe I won’t.

But being perfect, new forever.

With my Saviour.

Yahweh. Jesus. Holy Spirit.

Eternity I’ll spend.

Leadership

Source

Leadership is like driving a manual car. You start in first gear, and you have to gather speed before you can switch to second gear. If you spend too much time changing, then you’d have to go back to first gear again, or else the car might stall. As a leader, you have to start slow, and build your company or group or family up slowly, taking one gear at a time.

Sure, you can miss gears, but that puts a lot more strain on the engine. And to quote someone I know, “It’s more strain than it needs”

Your car will also run out of fuel. The solution? Fill it up. You can’t run on empty all your life. You need to take your focus off your work and just be you. Guess what, you’re allowed to go on that holiday. Work will wait. The world won’t end. It will still be running when you get back, and you’ll have more steam than before.

If you speed up too fast, then you use petrol faster. (Unless you have a diesel…) So take it slow. You have a life ahead of you. Don’t worry. You’ll get to fifth gear.